I feel so alone and by myself even though love is laying right next to me
Like there’s a whole world of tomorrows waiting for today to pass
So that all my obligations are knocking on my front door,
One after the other

I feel so alone when I wake up,
Wishing I could stay sleep for just a few moments longer
Than have to step outside
Where people are waiting to talk to me, be around me;
So I am of course riddled with anxiety
Shaking at the steering wheel
Hoping I don’t cross the yellow line,
Crashing into the slew of cars barreling by me at near astronomical speeds
I’m standing at the edge of a cliff, toes hanging over the unsteady ground
I’m heavy with the weight of sorrow
Pushing against my eyelids, sagging against my body
So that I’m always holding back tears, always teetering on the end of my days
Tired and alone

© Ama Akoto (2018)

Published by Sunshine

Sunny Scape is a safe space for Black women and queer folks. I am committed to eradicating intersecting systems of oppression that overwhelmingly affect people like myself, and doing so in a way that centers the most marginalized of us. That means that I am an activist on behalf of Black and brown queer and trans folks, children, sex workers, disabled folks, people of low socioeconomic status, currently and formerly imprisoned people, and countless others who are pushed to the back burners and relegated to second-class citizenship. This blog and everything within it is absolutely inseparable from the liberation efforts of all the aforementioned groups of people.

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